By that, I mean: I used to memorize the pieces, but when I got pregnant, I slacked off and was all, "Sooo tired! It's okay if I just read it this time, right?" <~ And who's gonna say no to a pregnant lady? Then, I "went on a break" when my son was born. I got rusty to the point of feeling insecure about whether or not I could deliver the goods. This was my first time back after some prayer about it. I thought to myself, "Okay, baby is six months old now. You've got to get back to memorizing." So I did.
I still felt really nervous before mic check and also right before I got up "on stage". I have a history of botching text in performance, even though I've practiced at home. With this piece, I practiced daily. So, yeah, I practiced at home...but I practiced hard at home. This made a difference. Even though I was nervous, I also knew somehow that I was going to be okay.
Oh! And I wish this had been intentional: I loved what I was wearing. I usually wear all black when I recite and today I put on a red belt because I was feeling that a little pop of color would be nice. I was halfway to the subway before it connected - we did a study of Joshua earlier this year. My belt was like Rahab's scarlet cord (and the scarlet cord of redemption throughout scripture). So, duh! I like that. I wish I had thought of the intention behind the outfit before I chose it. But it's still neat! I've decided that all black with a red belt will be my Spoken Word "costume" from now on.