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12/4/2013

I am bone tired right now. I'm in the midst of memorizing 3 poems for this concert on Saturday, but I am so tired I don't feel like I'm retaining anything. I also caught a cold on an airplane ride on Sunday night, so I feel like my head is heavy and full of fog.

If that wasn't enough, l'm miserably sore from a visit to the chiropractor's office on Monday. The massage therapist ripped into my broken wing so hard this time. I'm usually pretty tough when I am having work done on my my rotator cuff, but I had to stop her 20 minutes in because it was excruciating - surely my birth pains will not be worse than what she was doing to me….? It was absolutely knock-the-breath-outta-ya painful.

Now my head hurts and my body hurts...AND I HAVE A SHOW IN THREE DAYS.

I cried for 20 minutes this morning when I was rehearsing my text:

So come now, Lord Jesus
Come in your silence
breaking our noising
laughter of panic (<-----WHUUUUUT. That line right there.)
breaking this earth's time
breaking us, breaking us...

Two of my cast mates cried in rehearsal tonight, one while singing the line "All hail the power of Jesus' name" and the other while singing "O Savior of a fallen race" -- The material for this concert is profound. And we are broken people. I know this even without the current physical ailments, but I can't help but feel like the Universe conspired to bring me to the brink of exhaustion in order to really drive the point home.

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Ruth link

12/5/2013 04:16:05 am

I hope you get some much needed rest soon.

Those Christmas passages can be profound the more wise we get. More than a few years ago, I was singing Oh Holy Night in a halfway house for people recovering from drug addition. I was feeling bad about myself (as usual)... and the line "’til He appeared and the soul felt its worth," really got me. Still gives me goose bumps. Can we ever feel our worth? We do at moments with loved ones, don't we? Beautiful alchemy.

Erin G.

12/5/2013 05:11:36 am

e-yuuup. I ran into our pastor as I was leaving rehearsal and shared that it's going to be interesting -- all the talent is crying! But then I added that it will be wonderful in the true sense of the word: we are all full of wonder right now.

Ruth

12/5/2013 03:41:30 pm

This makes me smile. Break a leg.

Barbara link

12/14/2013 09:56:05 am

Would you believe it's me again. No, I am not stalking you. Thanks for subscribing me--and whenever you are well, please do it again because I was laughing so hard at what you said about your head being so full that I clicked thinking I would go directly to your site. You guessed it--I unsubscribed. My apologies.

As for this post--oh, I understand that feeling of being overwhelmed by God's love and being brought to tears by it. I hope you feel better soon, Erin. God bless you and your family and your sweet weepy friends.

12/16/2013 12:36:09 pm

Hi Barbara! I fixed my site so that it is MUCH easier to stay in touch. If you go to the margin on the right side, you can enter your email address and future updates will go right to your email inbox. Thanks for inspiring the change!

Tech week…I can do this.

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